From childhood, I suffered with allergy and asthma issues. Although a bright, creative, sensitive child who loved and excelled at school, I had an overwhelming feeling of being inferior and was always very self-conscious around people. Couple that sensitivity with the fact that an abusive person had access to me, and it’s not difficult to imagine that by the time I was a teenager, I was struggling in school, drinking excessively, feeling depressed, and making terrible decisions.
For most of my twenties, I tried to cope the best that I could while raising kids. Still drinking, I would sometimes encounter weeks where it was difficult to even get out of bed. I would feel muscle pain and major fatigue that would eventually lift, and I would go back to business as usual. The sense of inferiority and failure intensified with every bout of illness.
At 29, I cried out to Jesus to save me, and for the first time since childhood, I had a sense of fulfillment through serving Him. But, within a year of truly coming to salvation, I was diagnosed with Fibromyalgia and literally could not get out of bed. I was eating baby food because I couldn’t hold anything down, and the doctors were telling me there was nothing they could do for me except manage my pain, which was excruciating. I knew that Jesus had not given me back my life just for me to remain in that kind of pain. I cried out to Him to heal me. I continuously read His Word and prayed. Little by little, He began to show me the unforgiveness I harbored. He began to help me face the intense emotional pain in my heart.
I knew that if I wanted to get well from this physical disease, I had to let the Lord heal me from my emotional turmoil. As I learned to turn from sin and receive the love of Jesus, I began to heal in dramatic fashion. You may not have made the correlation between your physical illness and your emotional state, but we truly are beings that live from the inside out. The Scripture says that out of the heart flow the issues of life.
The peace of God allows our bodies to rest and heal. He has truly called us to enter into His rest, not to try to reach unattainable measures to gain His approval. He wants to begin your healing process today if you will let Him.
These are Jesus’ words, “Come to Me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28).
Scripture verses to meditate and pray:
Jesus wants to heal you. Ask Him to heal you completely as you meditate upon these scriptures.
“…pay attention to what I say; turn your ear to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to one’s whole body.” (Proverbs 4: 20-22)
“Praise the Lord, my soul, and forget not all his benefits – who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion.” (Psalm 103: 2-4)
“He himself bore our sins in his body on the cross, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness, by his wounds you have been healed.” (1 Peter 2:24)