I know addiction. I was addicted to one thing or another from my late teens until my forties. Nothing I took dulled the pain. Instead, I battled depression, confusion, and a deep sense of pain.
I prayed over and over – sometimes to live and sometimes to die. When opportunities came my way that I didn’t feel equipped to accomplish, I would believe the lie that I was not good enough. A deep feeling of inferiority fueled my need for chemical dependence. I had no guidance and no one to believe in me.
The lies I believed ended up leading me to the one place that I needed to be so I could hear a different voice that spoke truth: prison. I met Jesus in prison.
I began to pray in a much different way than earlier in my life. I really talked to Jesus expressing my cares, concerns, desires, needs, and thoughts. I loved His company and the guidance that He gave through the Holy Spirit.
I asked Him to comfort me and teach me His ways. I asked Him to speak to me through signs. He had my undivided attention for two and a half years while in prison. Jesus gently led me through all the things I was afraid of and showed me how valuable I was in His sight. Because of His love, I am clean. He is not only my Heavenly Father; He is my best friend.
Psalm 25:3 says, “No one whose hope is in you will ever be put to shame.”
Scripture verses to meditate and pray:
As you meditate and pray on these scriptures, ask Jesus to bring them to life in your soul.
“He rescued us from the domain of darkness, and transferred us to the Kingdom of His beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.” (Colossians 1:13-14)
“For we do not have a high priest who is unable to empathize with our weakness, but we have one who has been tempted in every way, just as we are – yet He did not sin. Let then approach God’s throne of grace with confidence, so that we may receive mercy and find grace to help us in our time of need.” (Hebrews 4:15-16)
“You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your body.” (1 Corinthians 6:19-20)